On Worthiness

I did a guided meditation this morning (thank you, Sam Harris)-

He had us look at why we are here at this moment. Every day up until this point has passed, every mood up until this point has passed, every experience up until this point has passed. Everything that has arisen has disappeared, and precisely because it has arisen, it has disappeared. And right now, there is only this, this moment of consciousness. And that is always our condition.

I think about what is available in this moment of consciousness, and I find that it is worthiness. Simply because I am alive shows that it is important to be alive. I am alive because it is important and I am important because I am alive and that’s it, it’s a circular answer, I keep coming back to my worthiness.

I think it’s important to be aware of this inherent worthiness. It’s important because it’s not contingent on any one way of being, on any one way of appearing. It’s important because deeming yourself more worthy because you look a certain way or eat a certain way is just not the reality of your consciousness. The reality is that you’re worthy no matter what you do, that it's unconditional in its very nature. And when we’re watching, listening, we become aware that our consciousness already knows this, already IS this.

When people get on board with Intuitive Eating, I warn them not to turn it into a diet. Diets tell you: Do This, and then you’re good, then you’re worthy. Intuitive Eating can also be mistaken for that, it’s another way of eating, another framework, another set of guidelines, and if you follow them you’re right, you’re worthy, and if you don’t you’re not. But that’s not it at all. Intuitive Eating is not a diet. You have worthiness outside of any one way of eating, be it intuitive or anything else.

Once that is set, once your body knows this, how would you choose to eat? How would you choose to relate to your body?